BF..

Again, i’m talking about this again. I feel pathetic but i just have to say this. I don’t get it why everyone thinks it’s really weird, odd, and insane when i have never had a boyfriend in my 16+ years of age. I was like what’s wrong with these people? Which one is more weird, when i’m 16+ and have never had a boyfriend, or i’m 89 and have never had a husband? It’s not that no one likes me, or i’m not allowed to, or the worst, that i’m lesbian. LOL damn it! How ridiculous. I like boys, i have liked a lot of boys in my life so far. And i’m crushing on someone right now. A boy. It’s my decision. You can’t change it or mess up with it.

Since i was a little kid, i’ve made a promise to myself that my first boyfriend should be the one i really like. Not the one that asked me to be his girlfriend first. A few guys have ever asked, but i didn’t say yes because they’re not the one i really like. I’ve explained it to them too and they understand. So what’s your business? You’re not even involved in it and now you’re thinking i’m weird just like i brought you into my problems.

Why do i made that kind of promise to myself? I think it would be really perfect if i’m older and someone asked me who my first boyfriend was, i could say it without a doubt, or it would be much better if someday my children ask me who my first love and first boyfriend was, i could answer “He’s your Dad.”

That’s too cute. Hahaha. I want, i do want to have one. But not by dating someone i don’t really like. There’s this guy that i’m crushing on with more possibility that my previous crushes. And i hope this is it. On december this year, i’ll be 17 and that’s when i’ll start taking this kind of problem seriously. Only less than 3 months left. Just, wish me luck, haha. So i could suffer and you know, stuffs related to this guy i’m crushing with.. I don’t wanna say a word, you’ll understand it yourself. Haha. Au revoir!