And All The Girlfriends' Boyfriends.

At first i actually wanted to post about this, but before i log in, i went to March's blog and saw a post of her about this too ._. Haha no copycat thinge! Well let's start.


Let me explain about the title. And All The Girlfriends' Boyfriends. Yes i am talking about relationship. Dating. Boyfriends. Cuddles, Kisses, Hugs, Sweet words, Late night calls, and other things related.


Is it just me or seems like there was something wrong with me? now those 13 (or even 12) year olds have boyfriends. Honestly when i was 13 i didn't even care about boys, about boyfriends, relationships. I just sticked to my goal, or some adventure games. When i was 13 i loved it to play Indiana Jones and Tomb Raider. I still do, actually. I played the Indiana Jones well but couldn't even go through the first place of tomb raider. I hate Lara Croft. Haha. When i was 13, i cried because i made my Dad mad, not because i was having a problem with my boyfriend and our relationship was at stake. No i really wasn't.


I started to think about it when i entered high school. I was 15. I started to think about boys, relationship and else. That was the first time i knew i envy the couples. Especially my friends. They're all in a relationship. They texted all night and day, they went on the phone for hours, i didn't even know what they were talking for that long. Now i'm still thinking about it. I start to envy more. Especially because i'm into teenage films now. You know, teenage films have kissing, hugging, cuddling scenes. Eventhough not all my friends are in a relationship, most of them have ever been in a relationship before. They talk about their problems, they go to dates. And when that happens, i'll just sit there looking like a retarded sheep.


But no matter how envy i am, i am kind of happy for being single since birth. I still find lots of benefits of it. It means a lot. It means i could have free times to sleep without afraid of being late to date, to have amazing adventures with my Dad without being called by boyfriend, to play games without being disturbed by texts from boyfriends, to have plenty of crushes-not only the possible ones but also the most unexpected ones- without being afraid of getting caught by boyfriend, to keep fangirl-ing band dudes as fanatic as possible without making boyfriend jealous, to watch All Time Low's videos without making boyfriend angry (because they have lots of sexy scenes. haha), to want Jack Barakat and Nick Santino on my bed, to dream about dating Chris Gentile, to lay on my bed without crying because my relationship is at stake, not to be afraid to leave my phone everywhere without being scared of getting caught or making boyfriend angry because i don't reply his text soon, and much more.


I was just thinking, is there anyone having a crush on me? a huge crush? Is there anyone who thinks "How i want her to be mine" everytime he sees me? Is there anyone who talks to his bestfriend about me? Is there anyone who save my photo in their computer/cellphone? Is there anyone love me?


Well this post is not even important, it's just me and my thoughts. It's only about it.